This post comes largely as a defense, "or rather a consequence? Sisko's
post this morning, when it should have been sleeping like a blessed the day that he expected and was instead brown peaks here. No need to read your post wrong but never in history to get a little right? And for a semi-rant to post in open not a matter of contempt.
In that post, Sisko speaks of many things, more of which may seem at first time and referred to many more situations that appear to but that is expected, human nature is recurring. I will not talk about it, at least not anytime soon, instead I'm doing something I've been wanting to do for centuries, from the day when someone opened his mouth in front rather than behind as usual. And something that should not have to do, why do you know? I owe nothing to anyone, much less explanation, and instead of this what you should do is send you to one and all to hell or wherever you want to go. As I said at the time and I repeat, does not interest me the friendship of those not worth it. And if I explain and try to reason it should not need reason, do not you are worth. But
. I appreciate it. Think what you think I consider friends and loved ones, even though some deserve it or not I have shown (although my back but in this world knowing everything is over) who do not want. But even I am guilty of sometimes silly and good, so do this before starting my own witch hunt. Lest you call me a traitor (again) for not warning.
Login to cut at your own risk. I warn you, it is likely that any of you may sting, but that would mean that you care about something which I doubt. Nor do I feel responsible about who alluded to, there's a reason why no names are too numerous to list. Let each decide whether to join the list or not.
Rika Akizuki.
Lipsi. Or was Lipsy? I learned that I never. Rinalia. Linali, Leenalee, etc, etc.
Mirai.
Nayrie.
Siska.
are many ways that I can relate to it, or with which I can draw your attention, but it's only the person who will respond. In fact the last term will also answer Kary but mostly I try to tell "sisketa" as Rika, to differentiate when we are all together. But while Kary also adore and I'm hooked on his life but did not say anything, no problems with it that no one thinks what is not and paranoyas rare. Is it because the other gigs and agree match although some have had to fight in the short time we are together.
With Rika, however, things are different. I do not know why. Is it because when I slump a little humor or just choose it from among all people? Is it because in many ways is the only opinion that really matter or affect me and others or are uninformed or just do not sail in that funeral? Why talk about it ad nauseum as if it was almost next door? Why consider spending an afternoon with her in the msn is "stay with my friend"? Is it because she is in Almeria and therefore I can not see it if not through a screen? Or is it because certain people have ideas that he is a horrible, who knows why, and who is the embodiment of evil? The truth is that is that. Because there is only one person who has problems are many and it seems that sometimes the number is growing including people who make you wonder if you really know you after all these years. Amen to what can be so influenced. How many times have I heard someone metaphors and comments left Rika as a witch and bitch haunted me as the fool, a mere pawn of the evil? More than I would, and all the only one I liked was that of Aizen and Hinamori although he said it was the idea of the roles exchanged.
Many people believe that I have Rika as a kind of goddess or center of my universe. What was that I heard? "Mei is Rika," referring to what I wonder? Mei is Rika ... Why disposable? Why manipulate? Why use? Why shred? Why want? Why care? Why support? The truth is that I doubt he said it had in mind the positive options. This is a thought that while not everyone has said (only one I've heard), I know many have it. And it's funny, because it's true. Mei is Rika. Yes, I confess, I am yours. But nobody would think that the opposite is true. Rika is Mei. She's so mine as I am yours. Mia to want to support, to help, to abandon, to manipulate, to break or whatever I want. We Aizen and Hinamori. How true that. With one gesture she can break me, make me mourn like years ago that do not cry, make me doubt, think badly of myself, make me feel like crap. And you can cheer me up, reminding me that despite all the shit in the world still can be good things, making me feel special and unique person that I just live, make me laugh in an uncontrolled manner and happy as a baby two years heal me when I hurt what can not be seen. She can do all that, just by typing a few words. And I know I can do it. I can break it, torturing, depressed, leave it and see it sink into the mud, put him in the body of doubt, distrust, paranoya, think ill of herself, make her feel as if it were nothing. And I can cure it, to support, cheer on their darkest hours, distract and give it a rest with joy when the worst is, give reasons for relaxing, forget it the starting point of the question, making her laugh. I can do that and more because she can do to me.
And you know why? Not because she is bad, a manipulative evil and hypocritical nature that poisons everything it touches. There is someone who controls the minds of others with few words and then white as the white black and black with a flash. Nor I am, but sometimes I fly and say that I am the messenger of death and other nonsense when we play. We are not evil entities that live to manipulate the other. We're just friends. Friends who have opened their hearts to each other, sometimes voluntarily, sometimes with a little force, sometimes by carelessness and sometimes by necessity. There are wide open, and open rooms do not always match, but she can walk around my heart and I for hers. "Like you're at home Sisko. That's what makes us vulnerable to another, but the same thing happens to all those who open their hearts to others.
The heart is the most precious and private that we have. We must protect those who trust him and to whom we miss. The wrong person can destroy us beyond that would destroy our bones beaten skin. But the right person can heal up the wounds that we never knew were there, until the wounds have not yet occurred. I do not know if Rika is the right person, but so far has been and I have no reason to remove all the access that I have given. As she has no reason to withdraw access has given me.
Rika is Aizen. True, true, and a thousand times right. It is cruel, subtle and accurate, he knows the weaknesses of others better than she believes, is an excellent actress and a liar. Is stubborn, stubborn as a herd of mules, hard pate, impatient, impulsive, childish as a child of two years which has not yet passed the stage of "everything is mine." Selfish, uncooperative, arrogant and proud, jerk and asshole, no blood in the veins or heat in the heart, influenced and short-sighted to what is before them. Spiteful. Edge.
Rika is Hinamori. Because it is sweet, loving and with a big heart. Firm in his decisions but in his footsteps insecure, shy but open and friendly. Solidarity and generosity, as a girl child of two years when everything in the world still loves and love with a magical mystery. Good, innocent, tender and considerate. Smart. Leal. Rika is all that and more to me forgot to mention. It is not that good either lying, or is that evil is a cover for protection. It is so good and bad. As bad as good. Incompletely imperfect fully human (and very angry that he's at times).
I'm Aizen. I'm cruel, manipulative and deceitful, sadistic and stubborn, stubborn and do not quite get along contradict me or be wrong. Edge and antisocial, uncooperative, impulsive, suspicious, childish as a two-year breeding still believe the center of the universe because his parents always look at her and only her. Selfish and greedy, arrogant, proud and asshole. With gall instead of blood in the veins and a block of ice for heart. Spiteful. Intolerant.
I am Hinamori. Vulnerable and gullible, generous and extremely loving, affectionate. Supportive, patient and understanding, children as a breeding of two years to a sweet he is happy and brightens the day like a thousand suns radiant. Dreamer. True.
'm all that and more, by the way I look and how others describe me. I am not a hypocrite because I worry about a and b not, because aid ac ad will deny him. I variable, changing, even weathervane. Inconsistently constant in my irregularity human constantly.
You see, if we Aizen and Hinamori. Both are both Aizen and Hinamori. The day I do not agree with the appropriate humor and fall into the opposite role of the other we fight and we hurt. And five minutes, we changed roles and if we end in the same role all is forgiven and we support and heal each other. Rika
as bad as I am. Are equal and different. We hit and we complement an infinite number of times a day. Sometimes it sends me to hell, sometimes I rule it. Sometimes we want to start the neck to each other, others rip off the neck of anyone who would harm the other.
Rika and Mei.
Mei and Rika. We
DOS (* cough * on a watch * cough *). Same and different. In it I see the reflection of all my faults and all the things that I hate, but I also see all the good that I admire and want to be and have. And surely she looks the same to me. We endure the same extent that we do not endure.
No lie, we are not hypocrites. On the contrary, we are sincere. Today I can love you with all my heart and tomorrow, I can hate, but that does not mean you will go past hating, like yesterday you may not even wanted. And if anyone thinks this is not possible, is that they are hypocrites, because nothing is constant in this world and all have bad days and all the others pay. There are very few saints in the world, and even they fell to the muddy mess when they stumble.
She is not perfect. It is a kind of goddess or center of my universe. It is important but I lived many years without knowing it, I find life before and if I ever disappear,
continue taking life. Not disappear or evaporate in the air me or asfixiaré me not knowing if she's not breathing. And she will live if I disappear one day.
We are not a pack. Although sometimes we choose to be, my life is so complete if her by my side or not, the same way that its existence is complete but I'm not. I do all that is Rika, and there are things he likes to tell me that I hate what I say. And she does everything I say or do, and hates and hates many things that I adore.
We complement and collide. She is not perfect, I do not. She is not the absolute right, me neither. But we're not the absolutism of evil, and if anyone thinks otherwise is perhaps because that is the face that we show because he deserves it or because that person if that is evil and you know. "Think of the thief all his concidión are."
Rika has many faults rather than virtues possible. Just like me. It is not perfect, in fact it is delightfully imperfect.
That is my best friend
but can not see or touch. He knows my weaknesses and my strengths as I know yours.
so bad for me as I am for her.
So next time you think "Mei is Rika", remember that "Rika Mei is "also. Not because one is a pawn or puppet of the other. If not because we're friends. Plain and simple friends, almost brothers.
And if anyone still thinks that she or I are bad. Handlers, hypocrites and God knows what else. Please do me a favor, out of my life. Do not need you in my msn and the house and the city is big enough to get lost in it. I do not ask to speak to me when I see it, I look even if you do not want. On the contrary, if you want, I beg you ignore me because I need you in my life and I love it. Whoever you are expendable. And not because "I have to Rika"
me but because I have my
and after twenty-four years I know perfectly I'm all you really need. And who will fill your place. I spent much time with Rika takes place empty, as with other places that you occupy, do you know what? Filled all those gaps were filled gradually, almost without my having to do anything. And fill again, sooner or later they will, so if you want to be there, wisely to get away and make room.
I do not care if you think that Rika is a manipulative bitch. But if I mind being a fool tomeis influenced when ye that I mess you let anything on the head.
have to see how relaxed throw a rant.
